part 7 - second shoot got caught

credit to you know who.

august 2000 (13 year old), i was watching a porn i borrowed from my friend. an angmo straight porn it was. of course i looked at cock instead of pussy. there were 2 stories in one cd. i popped in and started with the first scene: in a saloon.

the story started with a cute guy (let us name him Steven) entered a saloon shop. there were few customers in the shop, but only a lady served them. we can assume the lady was a hair stylist/ beautician and let us name her Jess. Jess was busy serving the customers - cut their hair, perm, drinks and clean the floor. while Steven was patiently waiting for his hair cut/ whatever, it was 5 oclock already. other customers left the shop and now only Steven and Jess were in the shop. when Jess was about to flip the 'welcome' to 'closed', a man came and pulled the door away, accidentally gave Jess a shock. then they conversed in French/ Italian/ whatever (the first dialogue was after 5 minutes play), probably apologising and asked to be the last customer of the day. ok let's name the guy Darren. he was there for facial mask therapy i assume.

Steven had brown hair, crystal eyes with spectacles and pierced on the right ear. he was wearing his formal attire, probably a blue colar worker in his late twenties. his hair was long and he really need a shave. while Darren was a blonde guy in mid twenties, he was wearing a white shirt printed a cross on it. i would say both the guys are cute and adorable. especially Darren. he has the boyish look and very pure. his smile was so charming and polite. should i describe Jess? nah.... not interested.

the shop was left with the three of them. while Darren was having his mask on, Jess turned to Steven and cut his hair. blink and the scene changes to Steven with his hair done. neat and tidy. Jess was shaving his beard off. turn her head to Darren, Darren was checking his face after facial mask. left and right. right and left. again and again. really cute.

when everything was done, time to pay. this part was the most interesting of the 30 minutes. Steven and Darren was standing at the counter, talking to Jess. Steven was trying to explain something and i assume he did not bring his wallet because he kept touching his pocket looking for something. while Darren was pointing his money on the counter. i assume he did not bring enough money. anyway since when we need understanding when watching porn? we create the story, don't we?

Jess was trying to report police but was stopped by the two guys. Darren and Steven then offered to clean the shop to repay the debt. scene changes again. this time Steven had taken off his coat and tie, unbuttoned his first button and vacuum the floor. while vacuuming, he cannot stop noticing Jess's protruding cow breast which were barely covered. Darren was tasked with mopping the floor with a piece of cloth. Darren was not as pure as he look as. Jess was sitting on a sofa with her leg crossed, leaving her panties exposed under her short blue skirt. Darren kept looking down and get closer to her for better view. when Jess found out she was peeped, she exposed more of her underskirt and bra, to fulfill the lust of the boys. and then slowly seduced the boys onto the sofa where she sat.

Steven slowly unbuttoned his attire and exposed his rock hard chest and yellow brief. he did not have hair on his chest, legs and armpits. he probably shaved clean. nipples hard and pinkish. abs were defined. bubble butt. he then threw off his spectacles and walked close to Jess. Darren on the other hand was more skinny. his body was not fully developed but the outline was ready. his nipples are pinkish and very hard, very yummy. with very slight hair on his chest, the hair thickens as it grew down to his bottom. trail can be seen heading down the boxers he wore. armpits hair look silky.

Steven was found licking her pussy when Darren walked to her. kissing her at first, Darren slowly took off his boxers and changed position to receive oral. wonderful. big size with pinkish head, Darren enjoyed as Jess popped her head in and out eating his cock. holding her breasts with every hands, Steven gave her pleasure and tongued her deep.

i am too lazy to make a review. you can imagine the rest of the play. a remarkable scene was that Darren and Steven both inserted their thick long cocks into Jess's pussy at the same time. both the boys moaned loudly in pleasure which was erotic to listen to. but Jess moaned even louder and put off the excitement. what a waste.

thought back of the way KC played himself, i tried, lying down on the cold marble floor, tfk alone in the room. at least i thought i was alone. starting to feel something strange, i hasten the paste and i can feel my cock grew bigger than normal. a bigger boner than i usually have. it grew slightly more than 6". when Darren shot his cum, i followed. it was a mind blowing orgasm. i cummed a lot which i think can fill up a small glass. i was all exhausted at the same time felt pleasured. my second time, this time was fun and thrilling.

that's not the end.

unable to catch my breathe, i fell asleep in the room. and when my mum knocked on my door she found out i was laying there naked with my cum all over the floor and porn was switched on. she did not say anything and walked out. SHIT i got caught. nervously i cleaned myself and the room. come to think of it, how did she enter? did i not lock the door?

we did not fight for what i did. we talked a bit on the 'health disastrous activity' and she simply asked me not to repeat.

when i told KC that i tfk and shot a lot of cum, he taught me more skills to pleasure myself. including kissing, insert finger into anus, rubbing with lubs etc. i have to admit that he is very professional at his age haha. when i told him that my mum caught me tfk, he laughed even harder and lasted for days. in the end he assured me not to worry, as long as i don't get caught anymore. what's more? he is now one of my best buddy i have. and our relationship is not just mere friends anymore. but that was another story.

there goes my second tfk experience.

hugs,
Evan

part 6 - my first kiss

credit to you know who.

not sure if i should separate to 2 post. but since they are inter related, maybe i would stick to 1.

again that was a story happened previously in july 2000, when i was 13. at that age i had already hit my puberty. hairs growing on my armpits. misai and pubic hair grew as well. worse of all, i can grow boner countlessly. at that time, i did not talk to anyone about that, thinking that it's some disease that would get off soon. but as time passed, i learned that it is part of growing process that every boy goes through. puberty we call it.

almost everyone at my age, in my school comprise only boys were excited all over. we started talking about girls, kisses, pubes, sex and... TFK. at first it was new to me, i have no idea what was that (but i tfk without knowing what is tfk few months ago). i live in an era of limited internet connection. so my sex education is limited by the strain of underexposure.

when i asked them what is tfk, in the crowd, all of them laughed at me. i was thinking why. one of them explained that you need to stroke yourself up and down, get it big and enjoy the session. it made sense to me and i recalled my past experience in cny. then everyone divert into tfk, exchanging experience of their sessions, how they did it, the sensation, the source and everything. there i was, sitting there looked blur. and tried to hide the fact that i tfk-ed unconsciously.

one of them, who was a cadet as well in my last camp, my best buddy now said "if you don't understand i can show you later. but do not tell anyone ok?"

i was so innocent, i said "ok"

wonder who that guy was? KC la.

followed suit, i ended up in our school toilet. what i like about our school is the toilet kept clean and dry. not to mention it is built spacious as well. in my heart i thought he would show me the way of tfk. but when we were inside, he asked me to strip down to without a strand of thread. i casually did as he said, because we were used to looking at each other naked back in camp. i had boners ready. i unbuttoned my shirts, school pants and so did he. he sat on the toilet bowl, began stroking his 5.5" cock, slowly at first. about 10 minutes later he asked me to stroke mine. blur with the condition, i stroke mine as he instructed. my feeling was rather fluctuating. i did not have the urge of anything besides excitement. but looking at KT red in face, sweating body and his odour makes me excited.

his movement switch vigourously. slow to fast, back to slow and fast. i was standing there playing with myself like an idiot. he asked me to kiss him and lick his nipples, but i rejected. i stood there long enough, stroking myself like an idiot. bored with the repeating movement, i started kissing and licking his lips. he let out a soft moan of pleasure. he asked me to shoot out, but i did not know how. i think i was a turn off for him, being so innocent and did not know how to act.

later, he let out a large moan and oozed out 6 squirt of whitish liquid from his cock. i was so shocked he cummed on himself. a thickening 'pee' it was. he looked enjoyed the session but i didn't. i am not used to tfk, let alone do it together.

"that is tfk"
"i think i did the same last time at home" i said.
"you will understand one day" he replied with a smack on my ass.

we dressed and walked out of the cubicle, to realize there are other people around in the toilet. i was so embarrassed and left quickly. later we were scolded for attending class late.

after that day, he occasionally asking me to follow him to toilet, and he tfk as always. i slowly started to enjoy watching him enjoy, but i don't have the urge to shoot. that continued for a month. and very quickly, rumours of me and KC having sex in toilet roamed. i was cool with it as it increased my popularity. but i denied when they asked if it's real or not.

p/s: why did i say previously my first kiss was not a glory one? it's because i kiss some one without feel. not the one i love. i didn't love him till something else happen. maybe i just had crush on him?

hugs,
Evan

part 5 - when was your first time looking a real one so close?

let's roll back to my memories in early 2000, when i was still 13. if it wasn't the july camp that i attended, i wouldn't have a nice view of what man is made of.

so much that i know i am gay since young, i have never seen a real man's cock until i was 13 in the jungle. (the one i saw in beach when i was small was not counted as i did not know anything ^_^) it was a camp to break the ice between the new members, and only few of us attended as cadets wasn't popular in our school. we are all quite open with our flesh. you see, when a bunch of boys from boy school hang out together, our topics are all about boobs and pussies. while we were discussing about those in swimming trunks by the river, one by one jumped into the river to hide the boners they built. the cool water de-boned their tents immediately but i was the only one staying on the land, unwet.

curious to why didn't i made follow to river, they formed a circle and whispered among themselves. i believe they came into a conclusion when they climbed up from the river bank. the six of them (RL, PK, Shawn, MC, KC and WY) had a plan in their minds, i can tell was a wicked one. few of them hesitated but was convinced.

few minutes after further discussion, they surrounded me. they were in nothing but swimming trunks. WY and MC wore a skimpy ones, which are way too low their waist, revealing some of their nicely trimmed bushes. the rest wore triangle trunks, blue, black and red. the most special one is SS, wearing white underwear. and i can see through his cock just by staring with naked eye.

in an immediate move, all of them removed their trunks down to the ankle. i was so innocent that i didn't expect any of this to happen and didn't have time to react. the shy but brave ones covered their cocks with hands, some barely covered due to the boners they had. while some stood in wet proudly in front of me revealing their uncut cocks, i began building a boner myself. SHIT!

i can tell they have nice cocks for asian. they are not very well built at the time. but their bodies turned me on. the most handsome, yet the most muscular among all, MC, 6' tall had a 6" long, 3" width cock hanging low. and his balls are dangling low. i don't really like the hairy balls he has but the length of his thick cock covers the incentive. i can tell it's long, and it's not even a boner yet. others have hanging cocks around 4"-5", heavy pubes and some hair on their chests. not to mention that MC has pointed red cherry nipples. so tempting.

unable to cover my own cock which was popping out of the trunk band, i jumped into the river. followed by them, surrounded me in naked, grinning.

"what are you doing?"
"to test if you have boners by looking at guys"
"come on get a life"
"we got the answer"

they let go off me after they wrestled and took off my trunk and swim off in nude. i must admit that they were very open at their age. i thought this could only happen in western countries but it happened on me, in malaysia. and i must admit too that swimming free ball is fantastic. the cold stream through your balls and your cocks flaps your thigh in every move. but i was shy. i didn't get up from the river until they returned my trunk. the 6 of them formed close bonds out of sudden, because i see them walking in nude in jungle, swim in nude, cook in nude, everything in nude. something that i don't expect to see when i thought they were so straight acting in school but in the jungle they can go crazy.

i remained quiet the whole day, being shy of found out my natural habit. but thanks to them, i had a wonderful view of that year. they are good looking, gorgeous and with nice cocks. what i didn't understand was of why did they want to test me? the camp continued for 4 days, and i get to see my friends in nude for 4 days altogether, giving me an excitement chill for the week. you can say its a nude camping. and I can't keep myself hiding from boners, because i was excited throughout the camp. with that, they keep teasing me and asked me to strip everything. "don't be shy" they said. but the max i can do was no further than my underwear. i was shy. i need to cover my constant boner. not to mention its freezing cold at night. but i see RL and PK had boners like me, and i tell you. they look gorgeous when they stretch out to relax. they are gymnast, and they have good body and flexibility. i think they can bend and suck on their own cocks too.

i saw SS tfk-ed behind the bush but i made no deal about that because i was on duty in cooking. i remained silence of his session. i think its normal, isn't it? after the camp, we remained normal friends, and will have a same camping trip next year, and every year. from there on, we formed bonds, friendship and companionship that i appreciate, even now. every year, we have new members joining us and the new members were shocked with our culture of camping. but they adapted faster than i thought.

13 was the age i get to have good look at real man's cock. not just from pornos. reals are more turn on. how i wish i can hold them in my hand. i was wondering. how does it feel to hold one in my hand. but i didn't dare to touch. after all we are still new to each other and friends have limitations. all off, i was conservative.

oh well. what a breath taking sight for a 13 year old boy.

hugs,
Evan

part 4 - natural art

18sx. underage please leave. don't say i never warn.

when did you first realize you have bushes in your ketiak?
i was 11 years old when i first saw myself with bulu ketiak.

when did you first realize you have misai on your face?
i wasn't sure, i don't give a damn.

when did you first realize you have pubes down the body?
i was 11 years old when i first saw myself in the mirror, together with bulu ketiak.

seriously, do you remember how you first masturbated?
i cannot remember the details, but i can try to elaborate.

i learned the word masturbation, or in chinese tfk in the july of 13 years old. i wasn't not sure if i was a bit late to learn it or not. but when i performed my first tfk, i did not have idea of how masturbation works, or how masturbation feels, or how masturbation supposed to be. simple to say, i did not know what is tfk when i first tfk. in another word, i wasn't aware of what i did.

my first tfk experience was when i was 13 years old, celebrating chinese new year. most people first discovered in the toilet, in shower or in their bed room. but for me i did my first tfk in front of tv. most of you would think i put in some pornos while doing it but in fact i was watching dragon ball (nothing close to porn). one asked "how would dragon ball able to stimulate you?" i did not answer him.

i was watching alone and i didn't knew that time, for no reason i moved my cock around my lose shorts. i am a free baller, so it was let loose easily. then i moved my fingers to my cock, wrapped it and naturally i stroked it up and down while watching gohan trains with picollo. i didn't understand why i did it but it sure felt nice doing it. i shrugged many times that day and i stopped my movement to calm myself. the sensation was too nice that i repeated it many times, only to find out very very very much later that i had orgasm. i started again and the sensation became more intense. i kept doing it and i did not know what's in my mind back then. many hours past, i suffered many sweats and enjoyed many pleasure that was sent down my spine. my cock was rock hard all the time and luckily no one was in the room to interrupt me. i guess i was curious and playing around too much.

i continued till the pleasure reached the biggest intensity. after awhile i felt the the burning sensation in my cock i had never felt before and i thought i was about to pee. i cannot contain the pleasure and pain, i let out a loud moan and 'pee' in front of the tv, on the floor. to my surprise it was dry, milky and sticky. omg! what happened? why is my pee so dry?

shocked, i cleaned myself and woke my cousin, Rex (i was staying at my uncles house) showed him the 'pee' and asked him what happened. he suggested i drink more water to hydrate myself. so i followed his instruction and later i pee properly in the toilet. the watery, clear pee was back. thank god.

that was my first tfk experience. paiseh it was humiliating to tell it out loud.

i did not dare to touch my cock anymore, afraid that i might 'pee' something weird again. but after the cny holiday, in the sex discussion with my classmates, i realized that i did not pee but instead i cum, which is normal for tfk. so tfk, cum, orgasm... everything became lights and i see through many things already. i did not tfk till months later i was daring again, with something erotic in my mind. i was sure that my second time gave more pleasure than my first. more practices and the art improved, thanks to the guidance, suggestion from friends and internet.

see? i told you i discovered many things in boy school, though tfk was self discovery.

hugs,
Evan

part 3 - entering boys world

after my primary school, i entered one of the premier schools in kl with excellent upsr results. upsr was too easy and not worth making a fuss about. it is not an ordinary premier school. to my delight it is full of talented students, which consisted of 100% boys. yes it is a boy school. knowing myself studying there in the future excited me for many days.

i did not believe my eyes when i first stepped into the school. they are all boys in uniform looked neat and scared. as a freshman myself, i am scared too. i sat next to HK and we became friends to help each other out. later, we manage to make more friends and network widened. i still remember HK and I stayed back together and did our revision together. i was very hardworking back when i was young.

boy school was fun. during pj, the boys strip down to their underwear and changed to their attires without shy. i get to see their undeveloped bodies for free all the time. some wore red briefs, black briefs, boxers. too bad, topless in the field was not allowed. the only time i can enjoy more eye candies was during the swimming class. all boys would change to their trunks in the public, of course covered with towels. but it was still a sight to enjoy. boys changing to blue and black trunks swimming in the pool gracefully as fishes. i tried to learn swimming but always drowned. i actually hate swimming because looking at them gave me boner and very hard to hide in trunk.

the longer i stayed in the school, the more people i noticed good looking, especially athletic seniors on the field. they were tanned and fit, built and handsome. my favourite past time was to sit by the field and study. there are some nerd librarians who are good looking too and once a while i dropped by for free air con and eye candies.

at the same time i watched myself carefully not to spill a bean on my sexuality. it was dangerous and i did not want to risk being found out so soon. it was months later that paper cannot wrap fire, i came out from closet too soon and let few of them know (very suspiciously i think they are gay too).

i knew this would be the world for me just right to grow. maybe every school is the same elsewhere, but my sex knowledge began here. very much alike with anyone, from a white innocent cloth i was painted colours of the rainbow. this was the place i further determined my sexual orientation.

hugs,
Evan

part 2 - my first kiss?

credited to you know who.

first kiss award goes to my mum! hahaha.

if she is not counted, it was a farewell party for school leavers (primary 6, 12 years old) when i had my first kiss and i was part of the cast for a fairy tale sketch. in the snow white sketch, i was suppose to kiss her in the last scene. yes, i am a prince.

i took the cast very seriously. when my friends knew i am going to kiss the princess, they giggled and smiled as if it was something embarrassing to do. i was like... uhh. why do i have to kiss her? yes thinking of kissing surely gave me a heart attack. to not shame myself during the play, i practised kissing in front of mirror several times, to make sure i do it perfectly. imagine the mirror as the girl i was about to kiss, and then laid my lips on the cold mirror surface and then... yuck. come to think of it, yea i was crazy to do that.

when it came to the real play, my heart was doubling the rate. right after touching her lips for 2 seconds (original script was 5 seconds) i immediately retracted my lips from her, so that when snow white opened her eyes she would see a pathetic prince panting to recover from his first kiss.

but after the kiss, there was a lift of burden from me. maybe thinking of kissing someone at my age was troubling me. but what satisfied me the most was the applause and cheers we received from the audience and thanks to the supportive comments from my friends.

i am not sure if the princess, YT remembers, but i definitely remember my first kiss, even though it is not to or from a boy. my first kiss with a boy was supposed to be a passionate one, which happened much later as i grew. compared to the first kiss with girl, my first boys kissing wasnt a "glory" one.

to be continued,
Evan

part 1 - when you see the lights

i dont know if this is a good idea. well... well...  i shouldnt hesitate, should i?

credited to Jino for proof read and editorial work

i should start by saying that i am actually a gay. adding to it, i think i knew my orientation since i was small. should be around 9 or 10 years old. too young to understand the idea of homosexual? not really. if my memory serves me correctly, i always pay attention to boys more than girls in my youth years.

how should i say? to make things simple, i like to see guys more than girls. in tv, in newspaper, in magazines, anywhere everywhere. i remember when i was 9, or maybe 10, we went to port dickson for beach. after finish playing water, i was suppose to go to the cubicles to wash up. not sure if i remember wrongly, the cubicles had no doors. there, i didnt wait for my turn and rush into a cubicle to wash off the dirt when there is a young man washing too. my heart was beating fast. of course i didnt know why, i think i enjoy the moment bathing together, even as a young boy not knowing that it is wrong to bathe together especially with strangers. and of course when i told my mum, she asked me not to do it again. then it came to me that the fast beating is actually my excitement. some argue it was due to something new that a child experience, not because i was excited sexually. i didnt argue because i didnt know either.

and then storm warriors. aaron kwok and ekin cheng. there were scenes where they were nude, topless etc. in the midnight i replay the movie to watch the same scenes countless times, many nights. without my parents knowing of course. how is it? does it confirm that i am gay or just curious about male? i wasnt sure either. but rest assured, i started to realize the difference between male and female. for the rest of my youth i paid more attention to males such as leonardo decaprio, or andy lau. when i was young i hyperly fascinated takuya kimura. there was a time japanese drama was so popular, every saturday and sunday will be filled with hot japs. water boys was one of it ^_^. ladies? sorry they never caught my attention. talking about ladies, i find them disgusting and annoying >_<

i remembered how my mum told us that boys should not touch a girl, and dont let a girl touch us. boys should not disturb girls. boys should love girls and boys are forbidden to love boys. i didnt ask her what if boys and boys loving each other, but i know whats her answer.

there are many cases not recorded in my diary that leads me to the conclusion that i am gay. the most concrete evidence that leads me to the conclusion was when i was 12, few of us were playing doctors and nurses and patients. acted as a patient who had an car accident, i lied down on the floor with only my pants and let the nurse (girl) check me out (just playing masak masak actually) nothing happened. and then when the doctor (boy) came and checked me, i had a boner. isnt it clear already? i was aroused when a boy touched me but i didnt dare tell anyone. maybe it wasnt my first to get a boner, that incident was a remarkable one for me.

during my youth, i was more of a closeted boy, never told anyone, afraid of being found out. not to mention i did not behave like other kids who grab each others cock when playing kejar kejar, i afraid that they tell my parents. i didnt have good memories about being gay till late 12 years old. i started to find out more after kissing my friend at the age of 12 (maybe will write next time). then on, i had a crush on him and fantasize of him more often than my homework. he was one of the top students in my batch and looked cute in his uniform. but he migrate to jakarta with his parents, and had grown slightly fatter than what he should grow. so i dont find him cute anymore. anyway that was a crush and not love. only when i entered my lower secondary school i learn that gay is the term for boys loving boys. proceeding further, i discovered more about gay life and the society, about sex, tfk, gays, erotic stories and most importantly, internet. but i am not writing about it now yet.

in conclusion, my life as a youth was pretty dull. i didnt know right away that i like guys and dont like girls. after years of thinking, i concluded myself gay and kept it to myself only. i didnt think anyone would realize as i act as straightly as i could. i did not know how to explained my abnormality. only recently i could talk to my cousin who is at my age. he is not gay, but he is the open type and accepted me as a good friend and cousin.

from,

Evan