how we end

the end started when he wants to sleep that night. he is a late nigher and that night he said he was extremely tired and went to bed early. actually that raised my suspicion very much as it is not like him to sleep so early. so i checked him out on fb and saw him online. he immediately offline after i sent him my text. and then i asked my friend to check tt if he is online, coz i am a banana. to my surprise he is online, according to my friend.

i called him up, hoping that he will wake up and answer my call to explain. to my disappointment, he didnt. so i called his brother, GC who is also my friend, to wake my bf (EC) up. his reply sent me a shock when i found out that his brother was not at home.

why is he bluffing? what makes him need to cheat at me? i have long suspected him having affair but he dismissed all allegations previously. he is not back, full of suspicion. as of me, i drove all the way to my exs (DL) house in kepong for his help. again to my surprise, i found my bfs car at his house. whats going on???

D lives in a ground floor apartment. i go to the windows where his room is located, peeked inside. to my astonishment, i saw 2 muscular figures riding each other on a cowboy position. from the moaning, i can clearly guess they are my bf and my ex. no doubt its them. after few minutes they changed into missionary position.

i couldnt watch them any longer and left the house in tears. why? my ex who dumped me, with my bf who loves me? doesnt make sense! why?

i drove to my bfs house, reached at 2am. in the meantime i was thinking how to deal with this situation. everything is so sudden i could not think. my mind was congested with their actions on bed and the voices in sweat. how did they come together in the first place? who is top, who is bot?

its 5am and finally his car came back. of coz he was shocked to see me there. i was expecting all sort of lies from him that night. yes he gave me excuses that he was with his friends on that night coz his friend was dumped and he needed to calm him down. and how they walked into a bar and drank off and didnt want to leave till his friend slept. and doesnt want to let me know coz afraid i will be angry.

but when i told him what i observed, he was so calm. although he didnt expect me to know, he finally revealed the truth that curtains me all the time.

the reason my ex dumped me was because of my bf. back then my ex, D was with me and at the same time date with my bf EC. both of them met in gym. so it was a double dating or sort that of coz i did not aware of. when D dumped me last year i was so sad and down that i did not believe in love anymore. but it was E who brought me to the light and cared for me, hugged me and cheered me up when i was lost and lowest in my life. it was EC who shared my pain. but now i know the true meaning behind this conspiracy. EC pitied me and worried that i will kill myself when D broke up with me, so EC approached me and made sure i survive. and now i survived, EC pushed me into hell again and probably asked someone to act as angel to save me. E at the same time was taking D as either a bf or sex buddy, which i wasnt sure.

i am very angry at how they cheated me and left me in darkness, when all they could say is sorry. of all people, one who i loved and one who i love were making out together, in secret, probably grinning together. i bet they have countless good memories while i was not around. they must have good sex activities when i was studying in sabah. arghh i cannot imagine anymore. curse these 2.

the story continues actually. after that night, i mean next morning, we met up again to discuss our path and future because i dont want to drag anything. as we talked we engaged into one last sex on bed, as a mark to end our 1 year relationship. it wasnt a hot one because i totally lost my love and interest on him. but as a gentleman i fulfill his last wish as a bf and fucked him raw. without fingering him, i inserted my cock into his hole and pumped him hard before i cum into him. i made sure i pump hard and fast to make sure his hole break and bleed. serve him right! he wont able to have sex for couple of weeks. and then after sex i bathe, slammed his house door and left the place. i never look back and i think its cool to think this way. never look back. thus the end of my job as a bf.

the feel of being cheated kills. especially by the 2 jerks who i thought i can trust the most. after this incident, can i trust anyone else? the wound remains and takes forever to heal. meanwhile i will back to my self. a cheap slut who doesnt care about anything else. i want to enjoy my life. they are too proud of themselves when they think i am too submitted. if they treat me this way, what difference are they to ons and sex buddy? knowing them having affair was crazy. i wish i can erase them from my memories. my first and second love, ended.

angry,
Evan